Half Way

I am 20 weeks along and half way through this pregnancy! We find out next week what we are having. In the beginning Alli used to say it was a brother but for the past while now she says it is a girl. I guess we'll see.... I keep saying either would be great because we want a sister for Alli but also we want a boy at some point.

We are excited!
I have to include a funny story:

Yesterday at church we were sitting behind a cute little family with a two month old baby girl. Allison loved looking at the baby. When the baby got sad I told Allison that she could help make her feel better. I said "you can say it's okay baby, don't be sad". Then I said you can make a funny face which she adorably did. It sure made the mom smile. Then Allison pinched her fingers together and said "awww I have a tiny baby, I eat her"and put her fingers to her lips. Then she said "mom you eat it" and proceeded to put her fingers to my lips and then down to my tummy, and she said "now you have baby in your tummy"! Dave and I looked at each other with big grins and chuckled to ourselves. So cute! We talk about that mommy has a baby in her tummy all the time. I just love so much that we got a little peek into her thoughts.

I must haven eaten a baby and now it's in my tummy :)

xoxoxo

...Our Valentine...

We love you soooooo much with our whole hearts, to the moon and back, forever and ever!
This was our gift to Alli. They are bean bags that I made and she loves them! That is a nice feeling. Saved money, made with love, and she actually plays with them, yessss!
Overall our Valentines Day was very low key but lots of fun. When Alli woke up she discovered that a Valentine had put hearts all over our house! It was a blast to see her finding them all! We watched Dora and the Wonder Pet's valentine shows. After some errands we had lunch with my mom. Came home for a quick nap and then we were off again. When we got home Dave was busy making a spaghetti dinner for us. We had spaghetti because it is red for Valentines Day, of course! Aunt Kim stopped by to give Allison a cute gift and the rest of the evening was spent eating yummy treats and relaxing. We decided to go out this Friday instead of the actual big, official day because dealing with tons of people and waiting didn't seem very romantic to us. So instead we spent the day with our valentine girl and it was perfect!

one needle in the haystack of my life.

Defying Gravity- Glee Cast

Tonight I Wanna Cry- Keith Urban

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri

Need You Now- Lady Antebellum

Broken Road- Rascal Flatts

I Run to You- Lady Antebellum

Luckiest- Ben Folds Five

Feels Like Home- Chantel Kreviazuk

Not Fire, Not Ice- Ben Harper

This was the itunes play list that accompanied my bubble bath tonight. I have been feeling anxious and stressed and not myself lately. I'm sure a lot has to do with tons of crazy extra hormones. Even though the reason I have these hormones is welcome and loved, I don't like these feelings. It is like a roller coaster. Up and down all the time and feeling opposite pulls of my heart. I really do honestly love my life. My little family is my life and they are a wonderful source of joy. I have a fun job that if I have to work this is a great one to have. I get to see my little girl all the time, do fun things, and get paid for it. Really, it's not bad. I have a handful of good friends and I am thankful for you. But this is also a thorn in my heart. I have thought and often still feel like I need to try harder to be a better friend. I see others around me and they are wonderful examples to me of friendship. I was inspired by this quote that my cousin put on her blog.

"BE the person you want to remember, don't just remember the

person you want to be"

-Leigh Snow

Her blog went on to say: "There are so many people I meet in this life that I think to myself, "wow this person is so amazing, I want to be just like them." But then often times, the natural man kicks in, and I forget. So then I heard this quote yesterday from one of my friends and it hit me; Don't sit there wishing you could be more like someone you greatly admire, BE that person now. Take on their admirable qualities that you love so much NOW."

I really took this to heart. I need to work on myself and be that person that I want to remember and that I want others to see in me. Although try as I might, I have realize that sometimes people are just not going to like me and not want to be my friend. And as much as I hate that feeling, I need to be okay with that. All I can do is try and be nice. I can only control myself. These feelings were the reason for my bubble bath tonight. This may be personal and a bit rambling but I feel better now so thanks for not judging, thank you for being my friend.